I can't believe how much I miss Cali; never could I have imagined I would mourn her so deeply.
I expect to see her everywhere.
When I come downstairs in the morning, I instinctively search for her on my way out to get the morning paper.
Everytime I open the door to go out, I glance down to see if she's on the porch, waiting to come in.
When I drive home, I wonder why she isn't outside ( someone let her out and didn't remember to let her back in again), ready for me to rescue her by letting her back into the house.
At night, I wonder why she isn't with me keeping me company when everyone else is gone. Last night was the first night I've spent here, completely alone.
At night, I can turn the porch light off when everyone is home; I don't have to wait til I 11 pm so she can take her final pee.
And I can leave food anywhere I want to; but I can't get used to this yet. No more baby gate blocking the kitchen entrance.
Walking through the sitting/kitchen area there was a HUGE empty space where her bowls used to be. Yesterday I placed a floor plant there ; it is now Cali's Plant.
I miss Cali's presence. But more than anything else, I miss her smile.
Awww Pooch :( I don't know what it's going to be like going home and not having to drop all my bags to pet her before she passes out...She really was the best dog in the whole world.
I was so happy to be able to say goodbye to her on my last visit. I don't care what any of you say. I loved her so much.
I'm going to miss you, Old Girl. I begged Mom and Dad for a dog for as long as I can remember, and you were my first. You were always such a comfort to me. I will have to snuggle with KB extra hard tonight when I get home from work.
When I found out, all I did for the first few hours was sob!! I never realized how much I loved her. my visits home were always welcomed by her first! She is now in a picture frame and not just on my fridge!
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I can't believe how much I miss Cali; never could I have imagined I would mourn her so deeply.
I expect to see her everywhere.
When I come downstairs in the morning, I instinctively search for her on my way out to get the morning paper.
Everytime I open the door to go out, I glance down to see if she's on the porch, waiting to come in.
When I drive home, I wonder why she isn't outside ( someone let her out and didn't remember to let her back in again), ready for me to rescue her by letting her back into the house.
At night, I wonder why she isn't with me keeping me company when everyone else is gone. Last night was the first night I've spent here, completely alone.
At night, I can turn the porch light off when everyone is home; I don't have to wait til I 11 pm so she can take her final pee.
And I can leave food anywhere I want to; but I can't get used to this yet. No more baby gate blocking the kitchen entrance.
Walking through the sitting/kitchen area there was a HUGE empty space where her bowls used to be. Yesterday I placed a floor plant there ; it is now Cali's Plant.
I miss Cali's presence. But more than anything else, I miss her smile.
Awww Pooch :( I don't know what it's going to be like going home and not having to drop all my bags to pet her before she passes out...She really was the best dog in the whole world.
I was so happy to be able to say goodbye to her on my last visit. I don't care what any of you say. I loved her so much.
I'm going to miss you, Old Girl. I begged Mom and Dad for a dog for as long as I can remember, and you were my first. You were always such a comfort to me. I will have to snuggle with KB extra hard tonight when I get home from work.
That was wrong: saying I miss her smile more than her presence. But I do miss her smile. Her presence still seems to be everywhere.
When I found out, all I did for the first few hours was sob!! I never realized how much I loved her. my visits home were always welcomed by her first! She is now in a picture frame and not just on my fridge!
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